She left me

When I was having my breakfast with my family, my aunt received a call from my uncle saying that my grandma might leave us anytime. I have the same feeling as Friday night when I received a call from my mom saying that my grandma is in critical. We rush to the hospital immediately. On the way to the hospital, it started to rain. I was crying all the way. My dad did not speed up. He drive at his normal speed. My mom says my grandma will wait if she wants. We don't have to rush. But I am still worried that she will leave me before I reach.
I went up to her ward with my mom and aunts while my dad and my bro went to park the car. She is not conscious anymore. She is not opening her eyes. She is not answering me. T_T My aunt who take care of her last night said my grandma is not moving since 5am. My grandma move a lot even if she is sleeping. It must be something wrong if she is not moving. But my aunt did not inform us that time. I was so angry at her. Doctor said there is nothing much they can do now because she is already very weak. All we can do now is wait for to her pass away. I feel so useless that time. Later my dad and my bro came. She is still not awake. My mom called people in the old folks home to fetch my grandpa here. When my grandpa is coming up, my grandma's heartbeat starts to drop as shown in the machine. My grandma passed away immediately at 1548 when my grandpa is in front of her. Now I understand by what my mom means by "my grandma will wait if she wants". I won't believe it if I don't witnessed it myself.
Later we went to the shop that sells coffins. We chose clothes and coffins for my grandma. After discussing all the details for the my grandma's funeral, we went to have our dinner and went home. I was trying to sleep but I couldn't. I was crying and trying to hear is there any sound. I was expecting some sound that will let me know that my grandma's soul is in the house. But I don't hear a single thing. I MISS HER!

Second day in the hospital

After my brunch, I went to the hospital to see my grandma. She looks fine. My aunt said my grandma did not sleep the whole night. Maybe she is tired so she thinks it is late already. She asked what is the time. She says she wants to sleep and ask us to go home. She wants to get down of the bed. She the kind of active person. She is afraid she can't walk because she keeps lying on the bed. She even know where to throw the plastic bag that she use to split to. Doctor came and told us about my grandma. He said her lungs hardens. Her lungs can't function well anymore. Or I should say her lungs cannot contract much. Air keeps entering the lungs to provide oxygen for her body causing lungs to expand but not contracting to the normal size. There is no more bleeding in the lungs but there is still blood in the lungs. With a cut at the lungs, i am sure there will be other liquid which is not belongs to the lungs had enter the lungs. Everyone knows she will leave us soon. But I am not accepting the truth. Because I don't want to lose her. I take care of her for awhile. She has been taking care of me for 20 years, now it is time for me to take care of her.