Something from my heart

I feel that something is bothering me recently. But I don't know what is the feeling about. It makes me very uncomfortable. Forget about the feeling, let's talk about something else. People might tell you they will be there for you whenever you need someone to talk to. However this will not be the case when you really need them. This is because everyone has their own things to do, own problems to worry about, and some other friends to care about. So they may not have time for you sometimes. I used to tell myself this when my friends are not replying my message. I don't know how true is this but I hope I am not wrong. There are times when I need someone to talk to but I don't know who to approach. I go through my contact list in my phone, I go through my friends list in Facebook, I don't know who to find. I am not sure are they willing to listen to me. I am not sure if they will understand me. That is why I prefer to keep the problems to myself. This way makes me a very negative person. I always see things from the negative point of view. I know this is not healthy. I need to change it. I am reading books to motivate myself and I believe I will be able to be more optimistic. All the best!!! And good night~ :)

out of expectation~

My degree year 2 sem 3 result is out yesterday evening. I was at the bookstore that time. When I reach home at around 8pm, I don't have the courage to see my result. I was worried that I will fail any subject. So I waited until 12am because this is the time to sleep.  Everyone will be in the room including me. I choose to see my result in my room is because I don't want my family to see me crying. I will sure cry if I fail any subject. So when the drama in the television ends, I went up to my room and log in to my university's portal. Well, I failed one very important subject. Failing this subject cause me to extend one year of studies. In other words I have to graduate one year later than expected. Failing is not something out of my expectation. The person who comforted me yesterday is someone out of my expectation. He is this guy I used to dislike sometimes. I used to complain about him to my friends but he is the one who comfort me and help me to stay strong. I am not mentioning his name here. But still I would like to thank him here. Thank you so much. I appreciate it. Before I end, I would like to thank jia yee n yan wei too. They were there for me too. Thank you!!! I love u guys very much!!! <3