ANGRY!!!

i can't stand it anymore..!!!those things shud b everyone's responsibility but most of them pretend like those things have nth to do with them...i still can tolerate if they don't want to handle those things...i can settle but i need their cooperation to settle those things...

T_T

my mood is very very bad these few days...bcoz of this i m being utterly rude to my parents...i feel so sorry to them but i just cant control myself...everything seems annoying to me...i duno wats my problem...i feel lyk crying and i hope i will feel better after crying...but i wanna cry alone...the only time is tmrw afternoon...but shit..!!! i cant stand it...tears started to fall T_T...but luckily it juz last for awhile...however its not enough...i still don't feel better...haiz =(

ME~

today my stomach was very very pain...it gives me a gastric feeling...but i did not leave my stomach empty...luckily its better now...account's assignment is done^^..!now its time for japanese and programming assignment =(...life in utar is like this...assignments n tests are non-stop...haiz...i told myself i have to study at least 4-5 hours per day...i did it but i don't see much things are being done n i don't really feel that i study much...i m not sure whether the time passed fast o i m slow in getting things done...i done those things needed to be done but those things are just tutorials...i spent 4 hours on 2 tutorials which is about only 10 questions...all 10 questions come with sub-questions la but its still consider slow lo...i m so upset with myself...maybe its because i did not concentrate much in class due to tiredness caused by sleeping late at nite...so i have to go through those notes before doing tutorials...i don't have a single memory on those things lecturer thought during lecture...damn sad...SO...i have decided to sleep earlier so that i can concentrate in class and finish up my tutorials in a shorter time... :D although i don't think i can do so la...haha...coz there is no distraction during late at nite since every1 went to sleep...i m those type of ppl that can't concentrate when there are things happening around me...means i m ke po la actually...haha...need to stop here 4 this time...have to read a bit of programming notes coz there wil b a quiz on thursday...then i need to go to bed...o else i will sleep in class=.=

*HIM*

i took bus with him on thurs morning to utar...not both of us oni la...stil got 2 other frens...tis is not the point...the point is...i tot i m goin 2 take bus home wit him...but...nope...goin back time is 2pm n its raining...i sms him n ask is him goin home now..?n he replied he is goin home but he is not at utar...so...means he is not taking utar bus lo T_T...den i decided not to go home yet...i stayed back 2 discuss account assignment wit my group members...i went home alone at 3pm...haiz...when i reached home,he is the only 1 at home...but there is no much communication btw us...i asked him 1 question n he answered me wit 1 sentence tats all...den i went 2 do my stuff...i really need 2 forget him coz i can't concentrate much...!!!every single word from him 2 me is bothering me A LOT...

clas on 9th of july...

9th of july...the bersih thingy is being held...n i hav japanese clas on tat day morning...due to the bersih thingy,the police made a road block at the road 2 bukit jalil...i m using tat road to utar...so,i m stucked ther 4 40 mins...hence i m 30 mins late 4 clas...haiz...but luckily sensei din scold me =)...during japanese clas...i m ok wit lecture time...but when it comes to tutorial time...haiz...got quiz lo...spelling...i din did excellently...i think i oni can get max 4/5 marks...tot of can get full marks...i need more coursework marks coz i heard tat final is not easy...tis subject is oni a pass fail subject but it bothers me a lot =.=...

*HIM*

i m afraid tat i really like him jor...i m not sure bout tis feeling but i hope its not real...i do think of him quite often...he does not treat very good and not very friendly to me all the time...he sometimes look fierce 2 me when he is talking me...however he is sometimes very friendly to me la :)...sometimes only la...i always tell others tat i m scare of him bcoz he is fierce...haha...but they keep on telling me tat "he is friendly"..."he is ok geh"..."he nth geh la"...haha...so izit i think 2 much o he treat me differently..?i don't get it...but i used to tell myself is i think 2 much n i misunderstand him 2 make myself feel better...it does works but only for a short period of time =(... i keep telling myself not 2 interact so much wit him anymore but i can't do so...haiz...so shud i stop searching around n let him b the 1..?i duno...

games... =D

i didn't study much today...coz i can't stop myself from playing games...haha...ohhh noooo....!!!seems like i m addicted to gamesss...this sat got japanese quiz n nex thur got prob & stat 1 test and programming quiz...n i m playing games not studying...i feel a bit sorry 2 my parents coz they spend so much money for me 2 study but i din't really study hard...haiz...so i think i hav to stop writing now n go 2 study...tmrw 10am class so i can study til 2am oni slep...ok la...go study now la... :)

first month in degree~

everyday have to walk up 2 the highest floor to attend classes...haiz...i sure lose weight after this sem...haha...i m sooo free during the 1st n 2nd week of this sem but now...tests n assignments coming jor...chapters for every subjects are getting harder...don't know what the hell lecturers teaching tim...cham lo...i m afraid i can't catch up...
i eat nasi lemak very often since i m in degree...coz...it is nice n it is the cheapest food that can make my stomach full =)...n so my pimples oso come out jor...too much sambal too less water pimples pun keluar lo...
get 2 know few new frens but din mix with them...v only smile to each other whenever v c each other...got a bit closer to some of them due to assignments...i feel very useless lo...do i look not friendly o i m not good in approaching them..?but its ok coz i stil hav a very close fren wit me everyday...^^