Whr should I go?

After two weeks tests, at last I got some time to blog.

I don't feel like going home because there are too many problems there. My grandfather don't want to stay with us. He always say we are not treating him well. We give him food, let him watch the television as he wish, did not scold him. What the hell makes him thinks that we are not treating him well. He brings a chair and sits in front of the television as if the television is his. We totally can't watch anything. Everyday talk alone, don't know what the hell is he scolding. I will sure hear some bad words from him every morning if I am at home. Last time, he said that my dad is not his son anymore because of money. He wants my dad to return him the money that he paid for the down payment of the house immediately. My parents have to borrow from my mom's sis's boyfriend who is actually not close to my parents. He as an outsider is willing to borrow RM30000 to my parents. But he as a father wants his own son to pay him back immediately. He even take away the rice cooker that he bought. My parents need the rice cooker for their business. My parents said they will return him immediately after they buy a new one but he insist to take it away. What kind of father is this. Well, after my dad came back from England, he shifts from my uncle's house to my house. He got three sons but the two other sons never want to stay him. He gave them money to buy house and car and support them in anyway but he didn't do anything for my dad. However the one that is actually taking care of him is my dad. And now he dares to say we are not treating him well. Does he deserves my respect? FUCK HIM LA!!!! 

Even until now, my dad is on his side. My dad even argue with my mom because of him. I sometimes do not understand my dad. I know he is a good son but I don't think his father deserves it. 

I can stay in my hostel if I don't want to go home but I am not happy there either. I feel so desperate there. I don't feel that I am part of them. Previously, I used to thought that relationship between house-mates is very good but I am wrong. Relationship with course-mates will be better. I can hardly find a topic to talk to them. We are dealing with different people and different things. Now yi hong is not here because he is sick. I become more desperate than ever.