Something from my heart

I feel that something is bothering me recently. But I don't know what is the feeling about. It makes me very uncomfortable. Forget about the feeling, let's talk about something else. People might tell you they will be there for you whenever you need someone to talk to. However this will not be the case when you really need them. This is because everyone has their own things to do, own problems to worry about, and some other friends to care about. So they may not have time for you sometimes. I used to tell myself this when my friends are not replying my message. I don't know how true is this but I hope I am not wrong. There are times when I need someone to talk to but I don't know who to approach. I go through my contact list in my phone, I go through my friends list in Facebook, I don't know who to find. I am not sure are they willing to listen to me. I am not sure if they will understand me. That is why I prefer to keep the problems to myself. This way makes me a very negative person. I always see things from the negative point of view. I know this is not healthy. I need to change it. I am reading books to motivate myself and I believe I will be able to be more optimistic. All the best!!! And good night~ :)