Problemssss~~~

Few days ago Shin Yee told me that there is a lot of things bothering her. Same goes to me. You might think that I have a happy family. I have my grandparents and parents living with me but there are a lot of problems between us.Two days ago, while everyone busy making and enjoy eating tang yuan, there were some arguments between my family members. Now, my grandma is at her brother's house. This is not the first time she run away from house to other people's house. Few days or a week later, she will come back to my house again. Arguments always happen in my house. So damn annoying. Before this I was thinking how nice if I have another house for me to go to. Now I have another house but my mother don't let me to stay there whenever I have no class. She always wants me to be at home. I DON'T LIKE TO BE AT HOME!!! 

That is only one of my problems. I am fat. I am not eating much nowadays but I am not losing weight! I do exercise too but it doesn't help. =(  Yesterday, I went for facial. The beautician told me that my face looks fine but if all the pimples burst out then it will be a terrible one. I don't know what can I do about it. I don't have that much money to do treatment now. I just hope it does not burst out. I have very bad temper recently, even worst than before. I get angry at anything and everything especially my mother. I am so sorry mom. I can't control my temper. The most important one is I did not get the result I want previous semester. I find it difficult to get for this semester. T_T

Eiiwwwww.....

My brother is currently working at Pacific Coffee Shop. So sometimes he will bring back foods because those food cannot be left to sell on the next day. I will try those food out. Well this is not my point for now. There is this one night he brought back sandwiches and pasta. I ate one of the sandwiches. It is half of the organic egg sandwich. Later, my brother starts to eat the other half. He took his first bite but did not swallow anything into his stomach. Then he said the sandwich was not good already. Then I was like 'Huh!!! I ate it!!!'. haha~ I am that stupid that I don't even know the food cannot be eaten anymore. He brought back the sandwich again. This time he asked me to make sure it is in good condition. To be honest, I am still not sure is it good but I had it all in my stomach already XD.

Need to change~~

I know I have been asking you a lot for your help these days. I don't know why but I just feel like finding you every time problems come and you will try to solve it for me. Whenever I have things to do, you will do it for me when I asked you to help. You are just too kind and I am just too lazy. So I always ended up asking you to do things for me. haizzz~  But, as a solution, I decided to delete your phone number from my contacts and don't find you in any other ways. Although I remember your phone number, but I hope it works. I don't online at night but in the morning because you are not awake yet. So I will not have a chance to chat with you. Then I won't think of you so much. As a conclusion I won't think of you to help me =D. Hence I won't disturb you so much^^. You also won't find me annoying. Am I right?? haha~

ME~

Exam is around the corner but I am not studying yet. I am still playing tetris almost everyday, not getting enough sleep, and busy disturbing people around me. What a few 'good habits' I have. Haiz~ Maybe I know that I still have time to revise or because the first paper is moral which is not an important subject. My second paper also my last paper for this semester that is sociology is on 19th of December. I really do have a lot of time to revise. However getting enough sleep is always a must for everyone. Instead of sleeping, now I am sitting on my bed with my laptop from not raining till raining and now the rain has stopped. Yesterday, I slept at 7 in the morning and woke up at 10.30am. I am tired but I don't feel like sleeping. There is something that keeps bothering me. It causes me to be so moody and does not feel like doing anything. I can't even sleep. Don't ask me what it is because I don't have the answer. I need someone to discipline me. I wonder who can take this responsibility. =.=

5th and 6th of November

~me in my uniform~

I worked as promoter for 2 days at NSK Kuchai Lama. Its a supermarket I guess but its horrible inside. I am very very busy with my assignments but I still have to work. All because of I have to write 2 outside class activities' reports. The reports require me to join some activities that need me to interact with people. Working as promoter is a difficult job to do actually. I was promoting Nestle Wafer. There were people from Nestle and NSK observing me. I can't stand still dreaming and not approaching customers. The worst thing is there is no network coverage in NSK. My hand-phone that time is just a tool for me to know the time. I don't have a partner for this job. There is also no other promoter near me. My only thing to do that time is explain to the customers about my product. What a boring job. Some customers are that kind of test-only-customer. They will not buy the product. They just take a piece of the sample and walk away@@. I love kids but during these two days I HATE kids. One piece is always not enough for them. They even stand beside me waiting for me to finish cutting. I don't have enough sample for two days. So I cannot be so generous. My supervisor asked me to divide every stick into 4 parts. Its totally not enough. Hence I divide into 6 and sometimes 7 and even 8. You might say I am too stingy but this is the only way to solve my limited sample problem. Now I have one report done and I have to think of what to do for the second report. Maybe I should just simply make up a story =.=.

*LCW*

What comes to mind when you see these three letters? Badminton world number 1 player Dato Lee Chong Wei? It can be one of the answer but its not what I mean here. Yes,these three letters are initial of a person's name but does not stands for Lee Chong Wei. Its the initial for another guy's name. He is someone that keeps appearing in my mind in these few days. Actually I don't know him. He is just a guy studying in the same university as me. He is same age as me but he entered uni a semester earlier than me. Basically we won't be taking the same subject as we are in different semester but I am lucky this semester. This semester is a short semester. I am taking elective subjects so as him. We both are taking Public Speaking subject and guess what. He is in the same lecture as me! =D There is two lecture in a week due to its a short semester. So I get to see him twice a week! My friend told me that he is a friendly guy but I still don't have the chance to talk to him. We did message twice but I am just asking him about second hand book. I am sure he didn't know I am one asking him. I am totally a stranger to him. Perhaps he will label me as his 'Public Speaking class mate' and not more than that. Since I also label him that way. I want to be at least a friend of his. Did I ever cross his mind? No matter what the answer is, he is always in my mind~

healthy me^^

On 9th of October which is a Sunday,I was supposed to go for cycling at Taman Pertanian. I slept at almost 5am that morning and as a consequences,I can't wake up to meet my friends at 6.30am. I woke up at 6.50am when Chen Hoong called me. He asked me if its alright for me if he is fetching fetching me at 7am and I said YES! Later I realized that I can't get ready in 10 minutes but I din't call him. So,he waited me for 10 minutes maybe=.= . I felt so bad but he is not mad=) . We reach Taman Pertanian at around 7.50am and guess what. We are early! Taman Pertanian only opens at 8.30am! When the time shows 8.30am,Tzy Shyang immediately run towards the ticket counter. However,he ran to the wrong counter. haizzz~ He have to line up at the very end of the line. By the time we reached the place to borrow bicycle,the line was also very long. We only manage to borrow bicycle at 10.30am. The road there is all up and down. I pushed my bicycle when its up and enjoyed the wind when its down! I had Kean Hin to push the bicycle for me. Thanks a lot Kean Hin=D ! Its tiring but everyone of us seems enjoyed. Although there have not much things to look at,but we do see some animals that we don't used to see. I don't know their names ~_~ .

its all about mood

I remember my house mate asked me,'why all your post sounds so moody?’. I think I got the explanation for him now. People would feel like sharing their stories during two situations. The first is when there is something happy happened. People usually share happy stuffs. Another case is during the sad moments. So am I. I don't have much happy things happening around me. So I left sad case to talk about. When I am is not happy,I wan't to find someone who is willing to listen to me and tell this someone how bad am I feeling that time. However,I usually can't find someone in short time. Everyone have their works to do and not waiting for my calls. So the fastest way to release my feeling is to write on the blog. I found out that I will not tell anyone about the feeling after I wrote it on the blog.

@.@

I went Viva Mall yesterday. Yesterday was my first time there. I don't even know this mall exist before this =.= . My parents bought a wok and they got an air purifier as lucky draw gift! The air purifier cost more than the wok. They were so happy. =D I am glad to see that. But happy things does not last long always.
Later,while I was driving home,I met two idiots. They think the road is theirs' I guess. The first one was with a Viva and was making a left turn and he is drunk that time I supposed. He turn towards me. I am at the opposite road of his. Luckily I saw him coming towards me and  I turned to other side. He just knocked my side mirror. My side mirror is fine =). Another one is driving a Kancil and trying to get into my lane. She thought she can just go to other people lane with her signal on. She din't even care if there is car coming. That is fine. The worst part is she don't come out when I am far away. She get out to my lane when I am beside her. I horned her and accident was prevented. Drivers in this country are sooooo damn "well trained" with "perfect" driving skills. If you think you think you are not alert enough to drive,get a rest first. Don't get other people into accident just because of your carelessness. Driving on the road is not an easy task to do. Drivers need to be multitask. Drivers need to be careful of car from left and right and car at the front and back. Drivers need to gives signals and break at appropriate time. Lives are on your hand.
By the time we entered our home,we saw some sand on the floor. It was actually due to small crack on the ceiling.
I think I have to stop here. I am not feeling well. I feel a little headache and my forehead is warmer than usual. Am I sick? I have to help Hilary in her assignment. She need to pass up on Tuesday if I a not mistaken. So I can't fall sick. Better go sleep now. Nitez^^

first two days of my 1st sem break in degree life...

After 17 weeks of studying,my first semester in my degree ends. I am looking forward to semester break during the 17 weeks,but when semester break is here I don't know what to do except for working and sleeping. Another way to spend this break is hang out with friends. However I am not a good event planner. I used to follow people's plan not doing the planning. My room mate asked me to plan but I am not sure if I can do it.

But I did spend the first two days of my semester break fantastically. On the first day,I went back to my campus where I spent a year to complete my foundation studies,UTAR campus at PJ. I went there to submit a document regarding my PTPTN. Later,I went for a movie with Ping Ping. He even treated me a set of Fillet O'Fish at Mc Donald.=) Thanks Ping! Yes.I just said 'he'. Ping Ping sounds like girl's name but this time is really a guy's name. We watched Nasi Lemak 2.0. The movie is funny and for sure contains some sensitive issues since its a production of Namewee. I do enjoy the movie =D.

On the next day,I went to work for ERA at SMK Sultan Abdul Aziz Shah. ERA actually work together Mr Lim Teck Hoe,someone who is good in memorizing skills. He even taught Tun Dr Mahathir and thats the reason Tun Dr Mahathir can give speech without looking at his script. I learned a lot while helping Mr Lim in this event. During the event,I received a few calls but there is only 2 are important. The first one is from UTAR. Cik Siti said I am supposed to opened a new account with my name only which means my trip to UTAR yesterday was wasted. The second call is from Chen Hoong asking me out for dinner. I told him I am going and he told me he will be picking me up at 7.30pm. The only thing I am not satisfied is I have to take public transport home. Mr Ding from ERA fetch me to the school then Mr Lim fetch me to Putra Height and I have to take public transport home from there with all the forms and booklets which I have to return to Mr Ding. It was 6.30pm and I was finding for taxi since there is no bus to my house. I don't know where to find this taxi and I am rushing back home because Chen Hoong is fetching me at 7.30pm. I need to take a shower before going to the dinner. I does not have much time left. Luckily there is this bus driver who is willing to fetch me to find a taxi. He is nice! And of course I paid the bus driver. Although Mr Ding pay for the transportation fees,I feel its too tiring for me. I hate taking public transport. The taxi fares cost RM20 ><. Hate taxi drivers. I am paying but still you are being soooo impolite to me! ANGRY!!!!!!
Later at the dinner,it was fun. We went Bandar Puteri Uncle Jang restaurant. They served korean food. Awesome!!! Love the food so much =D.

3rd paper~

I had my third paper today. Before I talk about the paper,let me talk about something happened at around 12 o'clock at the afternoon today. I missed bus. I am just less than a minute late.Hahahaha... and guess wat... I spent RM6 to take taxi to my campus. I can have two meal in my campus for lunch. What a waste. I could have save those money if I left my house earlier to wait for the bus.
About my paper today,great!!! I finished every question without guessing the answer. The steps that I provide for every question is the steps that I am confident with and I get answer for every question I did. I didn't hang half way. I am so happy. Hope everything I wrote was correct and not my feeling only.^^
Good luck for the other papers chui teng..!!! =)

Apology

I felt sorry to yi hong,my house mate. I had been disturbing him all the while when I am at PV5. I keep on using his laptop and place to play facebook's games while he need his laptop and place to study. We are having our final these few weeks. I tried to control myself not to disturb him. I also tried to discipline myself not to play and talk so much. I failed to do so most of the time. I am so disappointed with myself. I did not apologize to him directly. I wanted to but I didn't. Should I tell him? I think he will not see this as he don't used to see my blog.

:(

I feel moody suddenly. Maybe the person in front of me now is too noisy causes me can't concentrate in my studies. He is listening to songs with the volume that every1 in the house could hear clearly. Besides that,he keeps on moving my table. I can't write properly with my table moving.>< I don't know how am I supposed to tell him my unsatisfactory of him. I think I shouldn't tell him because I am worry that it will affect our relationship. But I am having my second paper tomorrow. I am not well prepared yet and I can't concentrate now. What am I supposed to do?@.@ I must do super well in tomorrow's and the coming papers due to I did not do well in my first paper. My mom wants me to go home on tomorrow for lantern festival but I don't feel like going home. I will not study at home. I will sleep a lot because my bed is sooooooo COMFORTABLE..!!!=) I am not discipline enough that's why I will not wake up to study although I had set alarm to wake me up=.= I hope I can discipline myself before its too late.

useless=me

I had my first paper for my year 1 sem 1 degree. The paper is not easy or I should say it is difficult :(. I know I didn't do well. To be exact,I did very badly. I did not get an answer for every question I did. I need an A for this subject in order to get a first class honour for my degree because I know the papers in future will be more and more difficult. Furthermore,I have external papers to take. So in future I not only have to concentrate on my university's papers but also my external papers. This is the reason I have to get nice result and earn more GPA so that it is easier for me to get my first class degree. But first class degree seems way to far for me to get. I think I cannot spend time on other activities other than my studies.

After the paper,my mood was utterly bad. I had decided to walk home because I want to cry. However,I am a little too "clever". I walk to the wrong way T_T. I told yi hong that I am lost. Then bee ling and him came to find me. This shows me that I am not independent and so useless. I can't do my paper well and I can't even go home myself.

I think I better stop and continue to study. I have no time to waste. bb=)

FRIEND~

What does the word 'friend' means? To be honest,i don't really know. Will everyone forgets their old friends when they have their new friends? Or they just actually forget those friends that does not bring any benefits to them? Or they will only forget friends who they feel not fun hanging around with? Why do people actually chooses friends?
I have a lot of questions today,maybe its because i feel lonely due to I think that I don't have a good relationship with my friends. I am not informed that she is on a trip with her family. As I know we are best friends. She was so good with me before this when I was helping her in creating a story where the truth value of the story was not known by others but now she din't even contact me if I don't find her.
Talking about my other friends. I was not informed that they are having a trip to Melaka. I was only told about the trip on a day before the trip starts. I hope the trip was not real but its real.
What is the problem with me that my friends will not remember me when there is any event? They will only remember me whenever they need help or i was there when they are planning for the event. Is a friend like me really so unimportant? Sometimes,I do not know who can I approach when I need help. Someone did lie to me saying that he is busy so he can't help but I saw him in cyber cafe. Playing in cyber cafe is more important than helping me. I tried to seek help from other friends but no one appear to help. From that time onwards,I know how 'important' I am.
I don't post on facebook. I don't even update my status like most of them do. Its because I do not get respond from others. This shows that no one cares about me. They do not even bother to comment on my post. So why do i need to update my status since no one is looking at it and no one really care what is happening to me.
However,I am glad that I stil have few friends who really cares about me and will show up to rescue when I am in trouble. =)

ANGRY!!!

i can't stand it anymore..!!!those things shud b everyone's responsibility but most of them pretend like those things have nth to do with them...i still can tolerate if they don't want to handle those things...i can settle but i need their cooperation to settle those things...

T_T

my mood is very very bad these few days...bcoz of this i m being utterly rude to my parents...i feel so sorry to them but i just cant control myself...everything seems annoying to me...i duno wats my problem...i feel lyk crying and i hope i will feel better after crying...but i wanna cry alone...the only time is tmrw afternoon...but shit..!!! i cant stand it...tears started to fall T_T...but luckily it juz last for awhile...however its not enough...i still don't feel better...haiz =(

ME~

today my stomach was very very pain...it gives me a gastric feeling...but i did not leave my stomach empty...luckily its better now...account's assignment is done^^..!now its time for japanese and programming assignment =(...life in utar is like this...assignments n tests are non-stop...haiz...i told myself i have to study at least 4-5 hours per day...i did it but i don't see much things are being done n i don't really feel that i study much...i m not sure whether the time passed fast o i m slow in getting things done...i done those things needed to be done but those things are just tutorials...i spent 4 hours on 2 tutorials which is about only 10 questions...all 10 questions come with sub-questions la but its still consider slow lo...i m so upset with myself...maybe its because i did not concentrate much in class due to tiredness caused by sleeping late at nite...so i have to go through those notes before doing tutorials...i don't have a single memory on those things lecturer thought during lecture...damn sad...SO...i have decided to sleep earlier so that i can concentrate in class and finish up my tutorials in a shorter time... :D although i don't think i can do so la...haha...coz there is no distraction during late at nite since every1 went to sleep...i m those type of ppl that can't concentrate when there are things happening around me...means i m ke po la actually...haha...need to stop here 4 this time...have to read a bit of programming notes coz there wil b a quiz on thursday...then i need to go to bed...o else i will sleep in class=.=

*HIM*

i took bus with him on thurs morning to utar...not both of us oni la...stil got 2 other frens...tis is not the point...the point is...i tot i m goin 2 take bus home wit him...but...nope...goin back time is 2pm n its raining...i sms him n ask is him goin home now..?n he replied he is goin home but he is not at utar...so...means he is not taking utar bus lo T_T...den i decided not to go home yet...i stayed back 2 discuss account assignment wit my group members...i went home alone at 3pm...haiz...when i reached home,he is the only 1 at home...but there is no much communication btw us...i asked him 1 question n he answered me wit 1 sentence tats all...den i went 2 do my stuff...i really need 2 forget him coz i can't concentrate much...!!!every single word from him 2 me is bothering me A LOT...

clas on 9th of july...

9th of july...the bersih thingy is being held...n i hav japanese clas on tat day morning...due to the bersih thingy,the police made a road block at the road 2 bukit jalil...i m using tat road to utar...so,i m stucked ther 4 40 mins...hence i m 30 mins late 4 clas...haiz...but luckily sensei din scold me =)...during japanese clas...i m ok wit lecture time...but when it comes to tutorial time...haiz...got quiz lo...spelling...i din did excellently...i think i oni can get max 4/5 marks...tot of can get full marks...i need more coursework marks coz i heard tat final is not easy...tis subject is oni a pass fail subject but it bothers me a lot =.=...

*HIM*

i m afraid tat i really like him jor...i m not sure bout tis feeling but i hope its not real...i do think of him quite often...he does not treat very good and not very friendly to me all the time...he sometimes look fierce 2 me when he is talking me...however he is sometimes very friendly to me la :)...sometimes only la...i always tell others tat i m scare of him bcoz he is fierce...haha...but they keep on telling me tat "he is friendly"..."he is ok geh"..."he nth geh la"...haha...so izit i think 2 much o he treat me differently..?i don't get it...but i used to tell myself is i think 2 much n i misunderstand him 2 make myself feel better...it does works but only for a short period of time =(... i keep telling myself not 2 interact so much wit him anymore but i can't do so...haiz...so shud i stop searching around n let him b the 1..?i duno...

games... =D

i didn't study much today...coz i can't stop myself from playing games...haha...ohhh noooo....!!!seems like i m addicted to gamesss...this sat got japanese quiz n nex thur got prob & stat 1 test and programming quiz...n i m playing games not studying...i feel a bit sorry 2 my parents coz they spend so much money for me 2 study but i din't really study hard...haiz...so i think i hav to stop writing now n go 2 study...tmrw 10am class so i can study til 2am oni slep...ok la...go study now la... :)

first month in degree~

everyday have to walk up 2 the highest floor to attend classes...haiz...i sure lose weight after this sem...haha...i m sooo free during the 1st n 2nd week of this sem but now...tests n assignments coming jor...chapters for every subjects are getting harder...don't know what the hell lecturers teaching tim...cham lo...i m afraid i can't catch up...
i eat nasi lemak very often since i m in degree...coz...it is nice n it is the cheapest food that can make my stomach full =)...n so my pimples oso come out jor...too much sambal too less water pimples pun keluar lo...
get 2 know few new frens but din mix with them...v only smile to each other whenever v c each other...got a bit closer to some of them due to assignments...i feel very useless lo...do i look not friendly o i m not good in approaching them..?but its ok coz i stil hav a very close fren wit me everyday...^^