Super emo

I am very down tonight. I don't know why. Maybe it is because of him. I guess I have really fall in love with him. I cried. I just can't hold my tears. I start to feel emo when I know he didn't reply me after he saw my msg. But he doesn't really have to reply anyway because my last message to him is "okay =D" . I know I shouldn't be moody because of this, but I still feel like crying when I think about it. Am I stupid? There might be more and more moody posts coming up in the future because I know I won't be happy if there is still him in my heart. I don't see chance between us.

2012

Year 2012 is not a good year for me. I had chicken pox where I still have the scars with me now. It  has been almost a year but the scars just don't want to go away. Then, I lost my Iphone. I was using it for a month only when it is being stolen. Fuck the thief. After that things doesn't go too bad until the release of my degree year 2 sem 1 result. I failed my loss model. I failed my coursework but I thought I could pass since I really know how to do during final. However, result still shows a 'F' for that subject. This is the first subject I fail in university. I do ask myself "Am I too stupid to study Actuarial Science?". The worst part is my grandma has passed away. She has left for a month, but I still cannot accept it. I always got a feeling that she is still with me as if she is still alive. I really miss her very much!!!
Year 2012 is really the worst year I ever had in my 20 years life. I hope 2013 will be a better year for me. :)